Today was one of those days that I had to glue my happy mask to my face and push through.
It wasn’t an all bad day. There were some highlights – I will never take away from the highlights, but the day just left me needing more.
It was one of those days that you just want to lay in bed and tell someone all of your problems, but you don’t want to be a burden.
One of those days you could cry at anything, but you choke it all back because no one wants to see that.
One of those days you just need a hand to hold, but you hold your own.
One of those days you feel ashamed to even be writing the words out, but you have to.
Have you ever had a day that even though the sun is shining, the walls close in.
It’s hard to breathe.
It’s hard to find joy in the sun, but you try so goddamned hard. So hard, it hurts.
The walls have been closing in for a few days now, actually a few weeks. It’s my fault. I won’t deny that. All actions have a reaction.
The walls closed in a lot today. Exhausted me, emotionally.
But, I will be okay.
Because I always am.
My “try and feel better” song